miranda barlow’s ‘you destroyed our lives’ speech literally haunts me and there isn’t a day i don’t think about her and all those years she spent alone on nassau i love her and i would be glad to take the bullet for her
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So I was thinking about the Max/Anne cave scene (i haven’t watched the episode all that recently, I just think about that scene a lot lol) and I think part of what’s so wonderful about it is that it’s one of the very few examples on this show of two people genuinely understanding what trust is… It’s a concept we see so many characters just completely not understand.
It’s them saying, we love each other but we also want fundamentally different things, and that’s okay we can still trust and accept these things about each other without judgement. And they’re able to acknowledge that because they want such different things, maybe it’s for the best that their paths diverge rather than one of them try to twist herself to fit into a life that just does not fit her. Max could have tried to convince Anne to stay and try to fit into the new civilized version of nassau, but she doesn’t, because she knows that would basically be hell for Anne (can you even imagine Anne trying to fit into the Woodes Rogers-ruled Nassau?? What would she even do for a living? She would have no place) and would rather they parted ways than force that on her. In a show where characters constantly mistake trust and partnership for wanting the same thing, it’s just such a rare and beautiful moment. Don’t get me wrong, that scene was heartbreaking and I absolutely didn’t WANT them to split up and I love that they eventually found their way back to each other, but way they chose to put each other as individuals before their relationship as a unit, and the amount of deep and healthy and genuine love that showed, was so beautiful.
Like, compare that to Eleanor at the beginning of season 3, who claims that trust=wanting the same thing. She ends up sacrificing her entire identity and agency in order to be seen by Woodes Rogers as “trustworthy”. Or compare it to Silver and Madi (Silver is also someone who literally describes trust as “wanting the same thing”). I think pretty early on in season 4 Silver becomes very aware that he and Madi want fundamentally different things. The mature thing to do, the thing that Max did, would be to step back and say “i don’t want what you want and you don’t want what I want, so maybe our paths are just going to diverge”. But of course he doesn’t do that, he prioritizes having her in his life over accepting that for Madi the security he wants for himself would be a stifling prison (I mean, imagining Madi as a tavern wife feels about as wrong as trying to imagine Anne existing in any civilized setting), and then tells himself he did The Right Thing. As many parallels as there are between Silver and Max, and even though their plans do end up lining up in the end, I think the final season makes it clear that they are very fundamentally different people (I think sometimes the parallels on this show are as much about pointing out differences as they are about drawing attention to similarities).
But what I also love about that cave scene with regard to Max is just her self awareness… it’s something about her that makes me so able to love her and just GET her even when she makes choices I don’t agree with. “The things that made that room possible were horrible things, but inside that room was peace, that is what home is to me”. She’s able be like ‘this is what I want, and i know it’s not a good thing to want, but i just want you to understand why i want it’. She doesn’t twist herself into a knot trying to justify what she wants as The Right Thing just to feel better about it. Even when she says that “drown the damn cat” line in season 4 (a line I find super depressing for a lot of reasons, and it’s not a conclusion I don’t agree with in any way, even though I understand and sympathize with why Max comes to that conclusion), it’s just such a fascinatingly blunt, bitter, non-sugar coated way of putting it, she’s not like “WOOO YEAH, lets drown that cat!!”, she doesn’t try to frame it as something less unsettling than it is or reframe the narrative to make it look better. And just, her openness and honesty in that cave scene, and the acknowledgement of why she wants what she wants, and the understanding that it really isn’t a completely good thing to want, AND the understanding that it’s not a path she should drag Anne down with her, is just so fascinating and complicated and it’s both kind of tragic but incredibly mature.
still can’t believe fucking peter had the audacity to hold the murder of alfred dickface hamilton over james and miranda while being perfectly aware of what he himself did to them both and thomas actual angel hamilton.
what a cunt.
#momanddad
little known fact: if you’re gay, in pain and near the sea you can conjure captain james flint out of the water at any time and he’ll turn your sorrow into righteous gay anger and hate of the government
james flint appreciation week: day 3 | favorite relationship(s)
James (about Thomas): He isn’t mad, he’s just bright…determined, wealthy…eloquent and kind-hearted. The most beautiful man i’ve ever seen, amazing in bed…the literal love of my life
James: sorry, what were we talking about again?
idk if someone has said this before but what julius says to flint
in 4×07 is literally what happens between flint and silver just episodes later“what happens when our enemy realizes that all it needs
to do to defeat us is to take away that common cause? turn one
against the other. and when that happens as it is all but certain to
do which of us standing here are likely to be the ones who benefit
and which the ones sold back into their chains?”when
the common cause between flint and silver changes, when what they
want starts to shift and silver turns on flint, silver was the one who
stood to benefit from it and was a major player in getting the treaty ratified and ending the war while flint was the one who was literally sold in
chains.
No offense but if you ever did me wrong don’t hmu years later asking for forgiveness, I’ve moved on. If it’s still eating you alive you need to find it in you to forgive yourself
but if you really moved on, you should just be able to forgive them?
I’m about to sound batshit
But some times people ask for forgiveness outwardly because they’re afraid of looking inwardly, idk if this makes sense but in my mind you need to learn how to forgive yourself. You need to sit w yourself and come to terms w what you did. Me forgiving you isn’t gonna rid you of that burden or that guilt. Don’t come to me because you feel like shit hoping that I’ll reassure you that I’m alright and that I’ve moved on, you need to find a different way to heal cause I’m not giving you thatALSO (this may not apply to op but its important to say) anybody who’s been wronged, abused, traumatized etc doesn’t HAVE to forgive OR forget. Moving on doesn’t mean you’ve forgiven the cause of your pain. It literally means you’ve moved on from it nothing more nothing less. And im gone stop anybody with the “everyone deserves forgiveness” right there. Because no. They don’t. Moving on doesn’t = forgiveness. Moving on consist of you doing what YOU need to do to get your life back in order. If that includes forgiveness great! If it doesn’t? Well, so be it. I’m tired of ppl putting the weight of forgiveness on the traumatized and abused. Thats too fucking bad if their abuser is never forgiven. Thats not their problem. NOT EVERYBODY DESERVES FORGIVENESS.
Thought I’d share with you @dandyavocado
Some fluffy Tomas-and-Marcus headcanons for y’all:
- Marcus starts the bar fights and Tomas finishes them.
- Tomas definitely can’t cook, and has no opportunity to cook while in a state of Perpetual Road Trip, but would 100% learn how to cook if it meant making sure Marcus was eating regularly.
- Marcus can cook a little but only knows how to make chicken nuggets and M&M pancakes and anything else you would cook for a traumatized child to make them feel better.
- Tomas can’t dance. His sister tried to teach him once but it was a traumatic experience for both.
- Marcus can only dance when he’s drunk.
- Tomas loves picking up science magazines at gas stations or scrolling through articles about new medical discoveries on his phone. He always tells Marcus the highlights.
- They once stayed up till 3:00 a.m. arguing different interpretations of Ezekiel 28.
- Tomas’ favorite movie is The Shining, which in their universe would be the highest-grossing horror movie of all time, which is weird to think about.
- Marcus’ favorite movie is National Treasure.
Bless