fuck it – Meg's Mumbles

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i saw some great fanart about the idea of abigail publishing diaries/writing a book of her own concerning her experiences and why that didn’t happen was something i never thought about before and at first i was like oh there’s so many possibilities like maybe the escalating events and the death of her father changed her! maybe she did, despite it all, but it wasn’t well-received! maybe she did but it conflicted with too many other narratives, those we see take hold in the finale! but really the thing behind all of those possibilities is the same, the fundamental reason why that isn’t part of the story imo, is because it would have been after james forced himself to act as the dark thing they fear in response to the impossible level of cruelty civilization shows him and miranda once more, unfortunately in that moment abigail’s story doesn’t matter because civilization’s story doesn’t matter… we’re past that, we’re all covered in blood and james gives up on being seen as himself or ever being seen and they burn it all down, ALL

and if i imagine being that angry for a moment i understand perfectly why when you’re burning yourself up you don’t pause to save the story of who you are (were) from the fire

I got up this morning after six hours of sleep and thought – ok, today sucks already because I’m cold and tired but maybe I can get some writing done. I walked into work this morning to hear my most offensive coworker complaining about a professor very reasonably giving a young woman an extension on turning in some work because she’s dealing with a Title IX incident (for my non-US followers, that means that she’s either been harassed or assaulted). I – am currently sitting here trying not to clench my fists, or my teeth, because I’ve said what I could say without actually getting into a shouting match with the coworker in question (much as I’d like to), and yet I am still incredibly angry because no, you do not just “get over” fucking sexual harassment, it’s fucking traumatic, and GODS this woman is a piece of shit. Also, it’s the start of fall and I just kind of want to curl up and not deal with anything for the next six months or so because fuck winter and the cold and the dark, that’s why.