asexualizing:

silver could have gotten thomas out of there. silver could have let flint get thomas out of there. he chose to use this information to end what thomas started, what flint desperately wanted to carry out with him and then for him and then by virtue of him. i can’t even begin to imagine what that moment of forcing flint into surrendering by using thomas went like and i don’t want to because it was either flint gives up a fight that was already lost thanks to silver and reunites with thomas – his love, his life, his truth – or flint keeps up the fight he knows is lost while knowing that he is also giving up his love, his life, his truth. whatever silver might think, this is not equatable to what he went through with madi. this is crumbling to pieces everything flint had worked for (everything that had a chance of making a difference to that Bigger Than A Person thing silver cannot understand) and then offering him one single piece to keep, the one single piece that no one would ever be able to take away from him, the one single piece that is the cornerstone of it all. but he will keep it to himself. history will not be altered. the future will not be altered. only the now, which silver thinks is the only time to care for.

silver could have listened to what madi wanted, needed. he thought keeping her alive was the most important thing while she was sick and tired of what this life looks like not for her, but for her people, for the generations of voices crying in her head. making her agree to this treaty which woodes rogers had offered, knowing that this treaty frees some with the blood of those who won’t be freed, because he wanted to keep her alive? yes, unforgivable. selling the cause for a single soul who does not want the cause to be sacrificed for her, who would sacrifice herself for the cause, just because you cannot understand why she would do that, just because you cannot see past what you would do, what you want, what you need? might be relatable, might be understandable, but still it is justifable that for madi it is unforgivable.

silver could have actually been the friend and trusted partner that flint truly believed in. silver could have been the proof flint held on to that the chaos of the aftermath will not last forever. silver could have been so many different things and so many different people.

but he chose to be the cook who stumbled into a revolution and just wanted to survive at any price.

he believes there is no narrative, that the world is made out of coincidences, that life is not a story that someone tells. but we don’t know his history, we don’t know his true self; all we know is the narrative that he constructed, of the cook who stumbled into a revolution and just wanted to survive at any price. and all people will remember is the story of Long John Silver, the man who had destroyed all who were close to him.